Friday, April 28, 2006
big goals.i thought i gave up on all my goals already. but somehow the inspiration talk somehow inspired me. i don't know why. and somehow i felt like crying when i watched that video. i felt that i'm such a loser. i'm giving up on myself because of little setbacks. SO i shall try to go back to my usual self. and start working hard again. i have really BIG goals you know.
oh yes. i was super strange today. before recess, i was very quiet. i didn't speak a word except during lessons when i have to talk. then after recess, i was thinking of ways to abuse myself. i wanted to feel pain. so it's either i'm quiet or i'm insane. i wonder which is better.
i felt like killing yixiu today. she was asking why am i quiet AGAIN. ahh. and i think i've really freaked kelly out. oh well. it's not good sitting next to me you know. and i think lots of people know that i wanna be an anorexic. sigh.
hmm. i don't feel as depressed as yesterday. not wait. actually i still do. i feel like slapping myself. no wait. i shall just go and bang my head against the wall. no no no. best solution. i'm gonna get drunk and forget about everything tonight.
i'm going out tomorrow! yay. like finally i'm going out. and i shall just have fun tomorrow and forget about everything. oh and it seems to be a mini 2/9 gathering. haha. it's like 9 or 10 people are going. i thought at first was only a few people. heh.
alright. i shall go find out what's gonna happen tomorrow.
au revoir!
claaar: HELLO WOMAN? since when did i talked to you huh. you disappeared into thin air before i came back. and i felt so bad. actually i still felt bad. sigh. but i'm glad you are alright now. (: and i'm afraid i'll make you sad again. so nevermind if i'm depressed kay? at least one person depressed is better than two people being depressed. it's contagious you know. HAH.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
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